Sometimes you just need to do all the bad things to realise what the good things are.
With CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome) I know that eating healthily is really important for me. I’ve been doing some experiments with protein to see how that affects me (I’ll write about this one soon). One thing I have learned is despite eating lots of protein but not eating healthily and not being active for a few days and the cfs really kicks in. On campus today and I feel so bad I’m contemplating taking a taxi rather than walking from the train station.
In my younger days I would have no sympathy for anyone with a hangover – they drunk too much, so self-inflicted. So I hope this post will not be me wallowing in self-pity. Instead I hope to use my self-inflicted CFS crash as a learning opportunity.
So what did I do to cause such a bad crash? For 4 days I was so inactive I never left the house. It was 2 days working at the computer, then 2 days doing nothing at home. In addition, I was eating junk and lots of it … chocolate, biscuits and lots of high salt, takeout food. What should have been an occasional treat turned into a daily, regular meal. Maybe my system could cope with one item but not this onslaught. No wonder I had such a bad reaction.
I felt so bad at one point I thought I had a bug – I even did a Covid test, but no, just the CFS making it’s presence known.
I am getting better at listening to my body (most of the time) and being kind to myself. There is no point in beating myself up for my ‘bad’ actions but it has really taught me how important it is to look after myself, to be active and to eat properly. Treats and indulgences are fine in moderation.
It seems ironic to me that to live with chronic fatigue and to have the lifestyle I desire, that being active is better than over-resting. I guess, like everything in life, it’s about balance. Making sure I exercise and am active as well as taking time to relax and rest too. Not too much of either.
I know CFS affects everyone differently and what works for me might not help others, but if you are on a similar journey, I’d love to hear of your experiences too.